I had a case of Life happen...

It's been a very busy past few months since my last post back in May... Since then, I've gotten a job, gotten promoted at said job, and am now in the process of relocating closer to said job. I've started working on my panel for Anime Nebraskon, and I've signed up for the walk-on cosplay competition, which means I have to scramble to get one of my costumes done in time. So, yeah. Life happened.

Numbers everyone should have close at hand

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

*sigh*

So due to stuff at home being more than I can tolerate in terms of asshattery, I'm in the midst of getting things packed up and migrated up to Omaha. I'm looking for work in the Omaha area, and looking for a place to live so I'm not mooching off of my bff and her mom for too long.... Once I'm out, I'm not going to be in contact with the 'rents for at least a year. I need to be away from them, and out of contact with them so they can't try and talk me into coming back to an extremely toxic situation. Yes, I'm a bit behind schedule in terms of getting the hell out of Dodge, but damnit, I'm working on it.

Convention Plans

Yes, I know it seems a bit early for me to be worrying about Anime Nebraskon, but I have a very good reason for doing so. This year, a very dear friend of mine will be flying in, and we'll be sharing a hotel room. I'll be booking the room in a few weeks, after I get more money put onto my re-loadable Visa, and have payed a couple bills...

I will have at least two costumes (possibly three, if time and money work out right) at Nebraskon, one of which is indeed Deckerd. I'm actually really close to having that one entirely done, aside from a few key pieces which need to be rebuilt before I can cover 'em in fabric. One of the other costumes I'm bringing will be worked on starting in August, when the fabric stores start putting out their Halloween fabrics, since I need a very specific one for the costume in question (no, I will not be posting progress pics of that one, since it's a surprise, though one other person does know who I'll be), and it's only available right before and after Halloween.... Though the actual building will happen prolly as soon as I finish Deckerd.

Anyway, keep checking here for updates from the Den! :D

A time of sadness

As a lot of you might know, I'm very much a lover of animals. I have had the honor and pleasure of having several in my life, and for the longest time, the one who has been one of my favorites was my dog, Cody. Sadly, all things must end... and this morning, between 5:20 AM and 5:45 AM, Cody took his last breaths and crossed the rainbow bridge. He was a part of our family for almost 15 years.... We got him in June of 1997, when he was 7 months old, and it's due to him that my fear of larger dogs was nullified. He was a good companion, and a good friend. He will be missed. May his journey across the rainbow bridge be a safe one.

Cody Pratt
1996-2012

Mrrr...

Thinking about starting a podcast..... Not sure what I'd do it on though...

On Exes

I know it's not healthy to hold onto hurt feelings for a long time.... but sometimes... even the mighty can fall. Three times, I fell in what I thought was love. Three times, I was lied to, used, manipulated. The last two, both participants were only using me to get to someone else. The last was almost four years ago. I know it's stupid to still get upset and enraged about being used like that, not once, but twice. But goddamnit, sometimes, all it takes is the mention of one of the worst bastards I dated to send me down the path of hurt and anger all over again after years of pushing the thought of the dickhead out of my head.

Um, wtf, brain?

Okay. For the last two days, I've had freaky-ass dreams that I find a bit disturbing.

First one involved being at a dance at a casino.... and being a witness to a shooting. All I remember is chaos, the aftermath of said chaos, and later getting home, changing out of my dress, and trying to relax.... before eying the dress and throwing it in the trash because I knew I would never be able to wear it again due to the negative memories tied to it.

Today's dream involved the cast of The Big Bang Theory, and me packing up everything I own to move out.... Though not everything got packed up right away.... And I was talking to a lady who was like an amalgamation of both Leonard and Sheldon's mothers.... At one point, I looked into my bedroom, which was all but empty aside from a few boxes and some furniture that I was probably leaving behind.... and I said to the lady "It just seems so weird, seeing that room so empty...."


Now I don't know if these two dreams are related or not, or even what they're hinting at. If anyone wants to chime in, feel free to do so.

I just know that I don't have freaky-ass dreams like these when I've fallen asleep after playing WoW.

O.o

So I did a bit of research.... Stumbled upon this site: http://www.carliniinstitute.com/how_recent_solar_flares_are_affecting_us and had a bit of a lightbulb moment.

It really does make sense. And it explains so much why I've been so damn drained.

Mrrph

mkay.... Here's the deal.... as of late, in other words: the last month or so, I've just been so damn wiped, and it seems like I just can't get enough sleep. But, and this is the really sucky thing, I have no insurance, so I can't go to the doctor's and find out what's wrong. It might just be that my internal clock's fucked up, or it could be something more serious. Right now, all I can do is try to eat better, and try and get back onto a more reasonable sleep schedule......